I don't know about this!

So yesterday was Shane's second day of school and we started our day off with him saying I am going to cry today! What a way to start! So we got ready and headed to school and all was well until we got in the class room. First off the teacher had changed there seats, which should have been fine, but that threw Shane all off. He wouldn't sit down and hung on to my leg and said he didn't want to stay. So I told him that I loved him and that I would be back in awhile to get him. After I pulled myself away me and Brylee headed out the door, only to hear Shane Scream the most offal scream you have ever heard. I look back and the teacher is having to pull him back in the class room while he held onto the door jam and his little head was all I could see, and he was now screaming "mommy please don't leave me." I cried most of the day any time I thought about it I cried. To make matters worse Brylee is asking me as we leave "are we going to leave brother here like that." What a fun day! After school I loved on him and told him that he has to go to school and we have to get through this. I also told him that if he did that Friday he would not get to go the camper this weekend. maybe I shouldn't tell him things like that, but he knew exactly what he was doing and he really thought that if he acted like that I would stay at school with him. He does love school he just thinks that I should stay with him. He told me he wanted me to be his teacher, or at least stay at school with him.

On a better note he did great this morning, we walked to his class and he gave me a hug and walked in and that was that. I hope he continues this way it was much easier. I took Brylee for her second day of pre-school and she was like bye mommy see ya later. She loves it and looks forward to the next day. I am grateful, it is nice having the time to get some things done. I started back to the gym today, I have gained a good bit of weight in the last 6 months and I have to get it off. My hormones have gone wacko and I am hoping that I can get them under control. So my goal is to go to the gym on Mon, Wed, Fri. after I drop off Brylee and get a good workout 3 times a week and hopefully that will help. So I hope you all have had a great week and have a great weekend!

Starting school!!!!

So Shane started school today :( I have cried alot of the day today and last night was pretty emotional. I know that they have to go to school or I guess I could home school, but that is not for me. It is so hard I really didn't think it would be this hard. He has been so excited while we have been getting him ready and he was such a trooper today, we got to school and he got his backpack on and he said where is Mrs. White's room so we headed off. When we got to the room I could tell he was very nervous, but he was not about to cry in front of me, you know he had to be a big man. So he noticed his name on the desk and then on his cubby and I showed him were to put his backpack and then he went and sat down. I took his picture and I told him bye and I left, crying as soon as I left the room only behind some of the other mothers crying there eyes out too. There were teachers in the hall saying we know its hard but it will get easier. I know that it will get easier, but right now it is just bitter sweet. When I think about it I realize that the kids he is meeting may just be friends that he keeps forever and that makes me realize that he can't be my baby boy forever.

Then I left there only to have to take Brylee to her first day of pre-school. This is not something that I have to do, but she had her heart set on starting school too. I know that it will be good for her, and I did cry but she did very well. She was not sure about it, but she didn't even cry, I told her I would be back and Shannon and I took off hoping that she wouldn't start crying before we left. The teacher said she didn't cry, but she was very shy all day. When I got there she was glad to see me, but she said she had fun and she was going back on Friday, I am so glad she enjoyed it, I think it will be very good for her.

So then we went and got Shane from school, or Shannon did because he wants me to drop him off and Shannon to pick him up, so Shannon went to get him and of course I rode along I had to be there to. He was so cute with his backpack on his back and his big smile on his face. ( I'm going to cry again, crying really is exhausting) he got in the truck and said he had fun, we asked him about his day and he told us all about it. He got home and he called granny to tell her about his day and mom asked him if he cried and he told her he did for a little while after I left because he wanted his mommy, He didn't tell me that again because he wants me to think of him as a big man. I am so grateful for the time that I have had with him I think God for allowing me to do things the way we have. It was so hard to see him take this next step but I am so excited to see where life takes him and I pray that we have equipped him with what he needs to make good choices.