Starting school!!!!

So Shane started school today :( I have cried alot of the day today and last night was pretty emotional. I know that they have to go to school or I guess I could home school, but that is not for me. It is so hard I really didn't think it would be this hard. He has been so excited while we have been getting him ready and he was such a trooper today, we got to school and he got his backpack on and he said where is Mrs. White's room so we headed off. When we got to the room I could tell he was very nervous, but he was not about to cry in front of me, you know he had to be a big man. So he noticed his name on the desk and then on his cubby and I showed him were to put his backpack and then he went and sat down. I took his picture and I told him bye and I left, crying as soon as I left the room only behind some of the other mothers crying there eyes out too. There were teachers in the hall saying we know its hard but it will get easier. I know that it will get easier, but right now it is just bitter sweet. When I think about it I realize that the kids he is meeting may just be friends that he keeps forever and that makes me realize that he can't be my baby boy forever.

Then I left there only to have to take Brylee to her first day of pre-school. This is not something that I have to do, but she had her heart set on starting school too. I know that it will be good for her, and I did cry but she did very well. She was not sure about it, but she didn't even cry, I told her I would be back and Shannon and I took off hoping that she wouldn't start crying before we left. The teacher said she didn't cry, but she was very shy all day. When I got there she was glad to see me, but she said she had fun and she was going back on Friday, I am so glad she enjoyed it, I think it will be very good for her.

So then we went and got Shane from school, or Shannon did because he wants me to drop him off and Shannon to pick him up, so Shannon went to get him and of course I rode along I had to be there to. He was so cute with his backpack on his back and his big smile on his face. ( I'm going to cry again, crying really is exhausting) he got in the truck and said he had fun, we asked him about his day and he told us all about it. He got home and he called granny to tell her about his day and mom asked him if he cried and he told her he did for a little while after I left because he wanted his mommy, He didn't tell me that again because he wants me to think of him as a big man. I am so grateful for the time that I have had with him I think God for allowing me to do things the way we have. It was so hard to see him take this next step but I am so excited to see where life takes him and I pray that we have equipped him with what he needs to make good choices.